Blubbering mess.....

I think everything is starting to get to me. I started secretly wigging out last night because FI is having a bachelor party and I dont' know why I was getting so upset. I totally trust him, I know he won't do anything stupid, I totally know that and believe that. We both said in the beginning that we didn't want one, and now his Best Man is giving him one, which is totally fine. I guess all my old insecurities just got the best of me. I've been griping at him lately about stupid crap and I feel horrible about it, it's not his fault. The other day I apologized to him about it, but he understands, he knows I am busy and I don't mean it, cause I don't. I don't realize that I'm doing when I do, but later on I realize that I am, and I feel just horrible. I hate that. I don't want to be like that towards him especially with this being that last few days that we are an engaged couple.

I'm totally over it now. Totally done and over being upset about his bachelor party and all this other crap too. And this sounds soo dumb, but I was looking at this amazing wedding photographers blog, http://www.nicolechathamphotography.com/ and just looking at the pics of her weddings and the couples and crying my friggin eyes out, just made me realize, this other crap doesn't matter. Who cares that he's going out, we are going to be married and that's all that matters. Who cares that my mom is stressing me out more than the actual wedding is. Who cares that we have soo many programs to make and I don't feel like doing it, and that everyday my mom keeps adding more and more shit onto her list. I DON'T CARE ANYMORE!!!!!

The only thing I care about is being Brandon's wife. I am in love with an amazing man, and I don't deserve him. He gives me more love than I could ever ask for and he's the bestest friend that I've ever had and ever will have. I can't wait to begin our lives together. I cannot absolutely wait to have a family with him and hopefully our children will have his beautiful blue eyes and wonderful laugh and thick hair =) I think I am just over come with soo much joy and thankfulness right now. Next week is the beginning of our wonderful life together. I am just soo ready and have been sooo ready for this journey to begin. It's going to be magical, it's going to fun, it'll be a rollercoaster, but we will be on it together, side by side, as one.

T-minus 10 days....and counting

Sooooo the wedding is 10 day, 10 DAYS AWAYS!!!! All the big stuff has been done. The last bridesmaids dress was purchased last night, HALLELUJAH!!! We are now finishing up the programs (150 done, 40 more to go!) and our aisle runner needs to be done and gifts need to be bought and bagged and thats pretty much it!!! I'm getting soo excited even though my mother is stressing me out. I love her to death but good lord she knows how to stress me out waaaay to much!!! I can't wait for this all to be over with and everything goes back to normal!!!

I still do need to get a card for Brandon for the wedding (i'm contemplating making him one, or going with a hallmark one, he loves it when I make him stuff, so I may just do that!). I also need to get a card for my parents and for my aunt and uncle who are doing our rehearsal dinner!!

I'm really nervous about the rehearsal. I hope that everyone pays attention and listens to what we want to have done. We ahve soo many people in our wedding party (mainly kids) but luckily their parents will be there, so hoepfully they will control their children, hehehehe :)

I still need to see if I can get brandons grandma to fix my petticoat. when I Had my bridals done a few weeks ago, I noticed that the hem was unravelling and it was all a hot mess!!! Soo that needs to be tended to, not that anyone would see it, but I would just feel better about it.

I feel bad lately cause I've been feeling like I've been griping at Brandon non stop, and I don't mean anything by it, I think I'm just stressed, and I'm gonna try to pay more attention to what I say to him. I don't want him to end up hating me after all this!!! hehe Not that he would. He does understand that I'm stressed out, thank goodness. He's such a great guy!!! I honestly feel like the luckiest gal in the world!!! I can't believe that I found someone that loves me as much as I love them and wants to be with me for the rest of our lives!!!!! It still amazes me everyday, and I just feel soo utterly blessed that we found each other, and are going to spend the rest of our lives together. We cannot wait!!!

Much needed update.....PICS

OY!! I have been soo busy, living, breathing, eating WEDDING!!! Accckk!!! It's almost here (12 days) and we absolutely cannot wait!!! WOOHOO!!! Just to let you in on some progress we have made, i'm posting pics. That's pretty much what this whole post will be!! ENJOY!!

These are our hershey miniatures wrappers that I designed. We printed them on the paper that we used for our Save the Dates. It was kinda tedious, but we really like them!! I couldn't get a good shot of it, but on the other side where the ends of paper meet, it says "Est. 2-28-09"

Our "I DO" letters obviously. These were pretty easy. I painted the sides chocolate brown and then painted the tops our red color. FI went back over them and dry brushed them with the brown. I love how they turned out and I'm kinda thinking about adding some of the pearls we used from our cake topper, but not sure. We'll see! Our invites. These babies certainly were a labor of love, but we've gotten soo many compliments on them!! I did print them one at a time, because I was worried about something happening. It probably took longer than usual, but oh well. The hardest part was printing out the address labels. I don't know if it was our

printer or what, but they were giving me soo much trouble!! But overall, I love how they came out and loved our invites!!

Our napkins!!! At first we weren't going to do the personalized napkins, but then they kept going on sale, so we gave in! We only ordered 100, and we are going to get brown napkins and mix them together. These will be for the two cake tables. Our bell ringer bell (old school teacher bell)
Flower Girl baskets! Got these for a steal at Hobby Lobby during their infamous 50% off wedding stuff sale!! We have 4 flower girls, so we got lucky finding 4 that match! These are the bags that will be for our kids table at the reception!! We just got regulary brown plain gift bags. I designed a lable to go on them. We are putting in the bag: pb&J sammy (cut into a heart), goldfish, gummy snak things, crayons, a personalized coloring book and a little toy.

Our Programs!! These turned out to be pretty easy to design, the only tedious task of it was putting them together!! I just downloaded a skinny program template from www.gartnerstudios.com and used it to help me format my program. We ordered Stardream Metallic Paper in Mars from Anchor Paper (100 sheets for $25, and they send you the scraps with too which we are going to use for another project). My dad fixed our hole punch to do two holes close to each other. My mom cut out the individual pages and then I went back and trimmed them. Then we did the bow type thing (not an actual bow tie). We really like how they turned out and how they incorporate all of our colors.
Ceremony page

Wedding Party Page

House Party Page

Our Thank Yous!

Bags I got for my BM's and also for all the people helping us out too!!! They were cheap, came in quick and I really like them!!! Ebay seller, trotter06. They will also have in the bags, their pearl necklace, bracelet and earrings for the wedding, a manicure set, a heart shaped keychain, and personalized notepad and pen,

and some bath and body stuff! I hope they like it!

Our candy buffet containers. Just a mix of stuff, I didn't care what they looked like, we need one more though!!

Our bags for the candy buffet!! I love our stickers!! =) Our Cake toppers!!! We ordered our cake toppers from Crafty Eddy and we got the "S" in 5 in. and the "M" and "B" in 3 in. We painted them in pearl ivory (which you can't really see the pearl anyways, lol) and then we used flat back off white pearls (3mm, http://www.dreamtimecreations.com/) and then 3mm crystals and glued each and every single one on there. This has been the most tedious task, i think more so than the invites, but we did them and we love them!!!

Our 160 packets of bird seed. This didn't take us long to do, i just dread getting smacked in the face with tons of sunflower seeds and having to pick that crap outta my hair for weeks on end. This was FI's idea, and I swear if I hear him complain about it, he's gonna get it!!! hehe =)

Our glass cake cutter. It's a Dur-X fruit and cake knife. These were made between the 1920-1940's. People used them mainly to cut acidic fruits, and the acids from the fruits wouldn't stain the knife. My mom is nervous about this being glass and that it'll get broke or something but I just have to reassure her that thats not going to happen!!!
Our wedding mess at my parents house!!!! I know my mom is sick of seeing all of this crap!! hehe